The Morpheus Test
“Hello Neo, I am Morpheus. The Oracle told me you were coming and now here you are.
I offer you a simple choice. In my hands I hold two pills.
If you take the blue pill, you will return to your life as a male. Any thoughts of being a female or transitioning will be gone. All your friends and family and the people you know will remember you as having always been nothing less than 100% male, and you will forget that any of this ever happened.
If you take the red pill, you will return to your life as a female. Any thoughts of being a male will be gone. All your friends and family and the people you know will remember you as having always been nothing less than 100% female, and you will see how deep the rabbit hole goes.
Which one do you choose?”
(note – female-to-male trans folk can obviously swap the genders around as appropriate)
This thought experiment is very useful for getting to the bottom of what’s really important to you. It helps a lot with stripping away all the social hangups that come with being trans. It also helps a lot with highlighting just what those hangups are, and how much of your doubt boils down to “what will people think of me?” I mean, if it was something you truly wanted to do, and there were no consequences (social or medical) for doing it, then why wouldn’t you? So if you find yourself saying “well, obviously I’d take the red pill without a second thought!”, that would suggest that many of your doubts come from your fear of societal views of you, but you actually *DO* want to transition. Conversely, if you definitely choose the blue pill, that would suggest you’re actually comfortable being cis-male, and that perhaps something else is going on.
“Oh, I’m not really sure which one I’d take…”
This would suggest something else is blocking you. Try some of the other tests below and maybe try this one again later when you’ve gained some more insight
“I wouldn’t choose either” / “I would choose both! (because I’m cool and edgy like that lol )”
That smacks of non-binary right there! Does androgyny (neither male nor female) sound at all appealing to you? What about gender fluidity? “Bearded Ladies” like Conchita Wurst may be your jam
Think carefully, and think truthfully. You’re not trying to impress anyone, you’re trying to get to the bottom of your true self, so don’t cheat because you’ll only be cheating yourself