IDK what I’m writing on about today. I just know that there are some things becoming supremely clear, and these things are causing, not a depression but a certain melancholy, if that’s even the right word. First: electro. It is going to be stupid expensive and so time consuming. I don’t have the time to dedicate to electro right now…well, that is not exactly true. I will have to call Heidi and see if I can set up an appointment….kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk I stepped away to check my phone and I had a text from Heidi, the electro. I guess I will try to go back in for a session but the problem is that I don’t believe that I can reliably keep this up. With the LBC’s ensuing money woes, I have to question whether I can even afford it, atm. I am going to have to win the lottery, shite friends. Second: Comcast is going to be a hard transition. I don’t know how accepting my peers are going to be. I don’t want to lose my job then become unemployable because of my trans status. But fuque, even with all these doubts about transition, there is one fact that is like a beacon of light in the pitch black night. And that fact is that I should have been born a girl. That would have taken care of all of these problems that I am sure resulted and WILL result from the beast that is dysphoria. And you know, I keep telling myself that the hrt is really working. I mean I don’t have boobs yet, or any sensation in that general sense. Another thing I don’t have is that crushing sensation that everything is wrong, or that I am a freak of nature (and if I am, then it is comforting to know that there are others like me!). Abruptly, this is the end for this entry. Peace out! lololol