I realize that my last few posts have been somewhat down or negative or melancholy or whatever. I think that I have finally come out of that funk. My mood has been generally up, which is a good thing. But I am taking my meds, so the bipolar is under control. I think the hrt is peeking through, at least in terms of moods. I can be calm when I need to be, and hype when I want to be, so from this perspective, hrt is doing its’ job.
I have, however, read on various forums and stuff about people experiencing a myriad of changes, both emotionally and physically, during the first few months on the magic beans. I am in month 5 with no physical changes to speak of, but that is okay. Acceptance. that is where I am now. HRT may take a while to start knocking down the T for me. All the other feelings and such will come. It may be more subtle, or it may knock me over the head in month 9, who knows?!?!
Anyway, I seem to have entered a zen-like approach to acceptance, and that seems to make me less melancholy. I like that. I hope y’all do too!! The only thing that seems to suffer when everything starts going really well for me is my writing slows to a crawl. I blame the bipolar meds, as I like writing when I have a bit of fire under me. Mining for gold while on meds is like pulling teeth. And I don’t know if pulling teeth is hard, but you know what I’m talking about, right? A bientot!.