I think that, and fuck me for typing this, but I think I might actually be able to go through SRS. The last time I went under the knife I had a terrible experience and was in the ICU for some days. Death and such words may have been bandied about.
Yet, despite my last horrid surgery and all the pain associated with it, I am considering the idea of SRS!! Way too shocking for me to fully absorb. I have my reasons for the possibility opening up, but I don’t want to share them here just yet.
Suffice it to say, this is a major step for me; I think some confidence from my therapist and reading other girls experiences, that I could actually handle the trauma and aftercare and pain that comes with such an invasive surgery.
All this is theoretical, as I have fuck all for money. Another dream deferred…