Well, dear readers of the page, today was the day for my visit with my therapist, Eli. It was kind of a big day in that the appointment was scheduled for 4:30pm. In Atlanta, that means traffic. And this little toaster is not so brave when it comes to traffic and highways. I didn’t take any Xanax, but did have to smoke some herb to calm me down.
I left my house around 3:15 and got down to Eli’s office at 4:00, so I had 30 minutes to kill while waiting on my appointment to begin. In the downtime, I retouched my lips, and played some Trivia Crack. I should mention that I did my makeup by myself today. I did okay, I think. Egg seemed to think it looked good, although upon closer inspection, she admitted that I used too much foundation, making it appear “heavy.” I didn’t even have to use concealer today. Today was a good day.
Hahahaha, Ice Cube aside, my favorite feature is my lips, especially with some color on them! Whoo haa!!! I need to get my teeth whitened! Lol!
So yeah, the drive wasn’t bad at all, and when I saw Eli, we gave each other a big hug. So nice. I LOVE Eli. We had the usual shrink-y stuff, and he is happy with my progress. We both are. We talked about my family, and how to better handle that situation. We talked about next steps, and both of us agreed that the next step should be name change. Yeah, orchi would come first, but it is too expensive for me at the moment. So, name change it is. Sophia – your name will be in the papers! You’ll be a star! Hahahahaha!! I still haven’t decided if I am going to tell my parents before I do it. We came to the conclusion that it may not be such a good idea. They haven’t been supportive in the least. No questions about my transition, no attempt to be understanding, or show kindness in that regard. I don’t want to paint them as the bad guys. They are supportive in other ways, kind and generous in other ways. It’s just, just ways that have nothing to do with me being trans. Since this has been an all-consuming part of my life for such a long time, and admittedly I hid it from them for long time, they are not even trying to understanD me. I have been distant for so many years, and this was a big part. And I’m willing to admit that I haven’t really called my parents all that much in recent years. It seems like as each year passes, the less and less we speak to each other. Now, I know that’s not true, but it feels like it. Anyway, I think I am going to go into the name change without their knowledge. Just makes things easier, although they cannot stop me. I be grown, lol!!!
Below is a pic of my makeup and one of the outfit I wore today. Alright, dear readers of the page, have a good one!