Okay, dear readers of the page, I finally did it. I scheduled my colonoscopy for May 8 at 12:30 pm. I have Crohn’s disease (if you don’t know what Crohn’s disease is, I encourage you to use your favorite search engine and take a gander) and haven’t had a colonoscopy in about 2 years. This is abnormal for me, as I have had at least one colonoscopy per year for the last 6-7 years, excepting the last two.
I am feeling shitty, and since I ran out of the green medication, the pain has increased twofold, along with other symptoms, such as bloody diarrhea, painful cramping of the large and small intestines, as well as cramping in my legs and feet, hands and arms. I am experiencing nausea, and other symptoms also. I don’t think the medication I’m currently taking is working.
The prep for the colonoscopy sucks. Basically, I cannot have solid foods for close to 16-20 hours. The food* that I can have consists of chicken or beef broth, gatorade (any color except red or purple, as it will mimic blood in my intestines), stuff like coffee and tea. Basically all liquids. And the prep is going to suck. I will probably be up for most of the night before the procedure.
It’s necessary, though. I need to find out what’s going on in there. My big fear is that the colonoscopy will show…nothing. That is one of the worst case scenarios. I guess another worst case scenario would be needing a bag. But that may not be too bad, except for having to acclimate to it.
If they don’t find anything, then my mind may spiral. I’d hate to think I’m making this pain up. It can’t be true though; something has to be wrong. TBH, I’m a little nervous that they won’t find anything. I guess this is, indeed, my biggest fear. That it is psychosomatic. Oh wells, nothing to do know except wait and take it as easy as possible until the 6th of May.
May is shaping up to be a busy month for me. I will be seeing all but my primary physician and my therapist. I really need to see my fucking therapist, but his fee is high at 180$ per one hour session, with no insurance. I am going to have to get back into him though, so I can get letters for my orchiectomy. But that’s another story to be told in another post.
Thanks for reading, dear readers of the page. Stay tuned to whilehavingtea for more information.